October 24, 2016
I don't know if anyone ever checks here or not but... Hey, I had a baby and I went up for tenure and we bought a fixer upper and Emilia started school and we sold our house and we moved and and and...
It's been a lot but it's all good things. I'm posting sometimes on Instagram (@jesspgh). My outfits are rarely clean right now so they hardly seem worthy of documentation. I am also on maternity leave and undecided on a good spot in the new house to take photos. I will be back when I have breathing room. Thanks so much to anyone who might be still checking in here! I hope you are well.
July 01, 2016
Last week we bought a house. This week my tenure file is in. Next week I'd like to finish revisions on an accepted article or at least make big progress on my book. All of this is provided that I don't go into labor. What an exciting and stressful time!
This year I had to work on my bday which is fine because I got to debut a dress in my favorite color and I got to take some belly progress photos. Now that my teaching obligations have wrapped, I don't get the chance to take many belly progress photos so I know I'll be grateful that I have the ones that I do. I was so diligent last time around, taking them every week. But last time around I didn't have a kid to take care of, I didn't have a tenure dossier deadline, I wasn't buying a house, I wasn't trying to prep my current house for selling, I wasn't working on my book, etc. Last time, I literally made being pregnant the most important thing in my universe through the duration, which was both good and bad. I researched and read about it voraciously. But I gave myself a lot more time to fret and worry, often to the point of irrationality. This time I don't have that luxury which makes me feel a little guilty in some ways. I don't want my lack of fretting or focus to be interpreted as lack of enthusiasm or gratitude. I am so incredibly excited to have another child and to see Emilia become a sister. But a big part of my identity as a person (and also as a mom) is my work. I just want to be in a good place work-wise so I can fully relish and celebrate the new arrival.
Anyway, this birthday felt extra special because of all the good things on the horizon. And I do love this dress. I already had it in black (blogged here) but decided to use some Boden vouchers to treat myself to the purple on clearance.
Boden Glenda Dress
Sam Edelman booties
June 16, 2016
This dress was an eBay find from The Pea in the Pod last time around. I wore it a bunch toward the end of pregnancy then and I am wearing it a lot now because unlike the majority of my maternity dresses from before, it has short sleeves and is pretty lightweight.
I can't believe how close I am to the end of pregnancy. I am kind of in panic mode because there is a lot going on. We are buying a house that needs some work and eventually selling our house. I am finishing my book thanks to my NEH grant (for which I will to complete and submit a report on my accomplishments thanks to the funds). My tenure file is due at the end of the month. Chris has work travel that takes him off the continent. And on top of everything, I am going to have another baby soon!
I need to comfort my very tender feeling kiddo through all of this change and transition. I worry about how she will process so much at once. I feel a lot of emotions and I feel them in a very pronounced way. Last week was the anniversary of my early miscarriage. I felt heavy from the memory but it is not lost on me that I am so lucky that things have (on the whole) been ok with this pregnancy. All of these things are a lot. But most of it is good. After this week especially, I feel reminded of how my "lot" in life is so fortunate, even when I'm overwhelmed. My thoughts are with those who are processing significantly traumatic events with understandable overwhelm.