April 14, 2011

Feeling Especially Green OOTD

Mike and Chris dress
Nine West pumps
Banana Republic necklace

As I've been assembling the portfolio for my annual review (which feels both significant and intimidating), I've been quite literally tallying up my achievements for the academic year. In doing so, I can't help but feel a bit under-experienced and inadequate. I've tried my best to balance teaching with research and service but in this position teaching occupies the bulk of my time and energy. I was glad to have a few publications accepted with minor revisions along the way. I was fortunate to find the time to present at a national conference. But I didn't have a lot of time to apply for post-docs, travel-to-collections grants, or the types of research awards that I pursued actively as a graduate student. When I stack up my achievements I can't help but feel as though I'm not measuring up to a standard I set for myself long ago. Hopefully this summer (when I won't be teaching) I will find time and ways to compensate. But in the meanwhile, I worry that my levels of production are not what I intended for them to be in the first year of my first tenure track job. Is anyone else doing this right now? How do you fight the inevitable annual review blues (especially when you know state budgets mean you won't be getting any additional compensation for the following year)?

3 comments:

Thirteenlbs said...

I have pretty much ignored anything except teaching, but can't put it off next year. Seems to me like you're ahead of the game, Jess. Conferences, teaching, and publications-- does not sound inadequate to me...

Terri said...

I do not know what discipline you are in, but i would cut yourself some first year slack. The learning curve about the culture at your institution can be pretty stiff that first year. Any committee work or service projects that could be included in the portfolio?

Tricia Mickelsen Thomas said...

I love that dress the draping on the top is so beautiful! I am sure you are short changing yourself hey at least you have some achievements:)!! Mine would be getting my kids ready and doing my girls hair:)!

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